Goals (Day 37)

Well, this is kind of odd.

I realized the other day that I never really set any goals before starting the fast other than to
*finish the 40 days
*lose some weight and
*become healthier.

Well, aside from the 40 day part (that happens in 3 more days), I think I can successfully say I've reached the other 2 very broad goals. I'm not at the end yet so I won't go and list all of the changes....but I've certainly lost weight and don't think there is a doctor out there, compared to where I was 37 days ago, who would argue that I am not MUCH healthier today.

In June of 2012, at my max weight, I told my husband I wanted weight loss surgery because "the lowest weight I can ever remember being (since High School-I think I was about 150 pounds in HS) was 175 pounds. And even THAT is considered overweight!" And I truly felt helpless. I felt like I was going to have to start some eating disorder to get my weight below 175 pounds.

Then, a little over a week ago, my husband and I were talking about the future and where we wanted to be at the end of our 40 days and I told him, "You know, at this point, I think I'd be happy if by the end of the 40 days, I broke through and made it into the 160's." I even doubted myself and gave myself an out, "I mean, I'll still be happy if I don't....but it would be nice."

And today...... I did it! I said goodbye to the 170's and I'm now in the 160's. Granted, this morning it was 169.2.......I'LL TAKE IT!!! And I'll stop being so damn hard on myself, too! So WHAT that it's 169!?!!?!? When I weighed 234 pounds, if someone came up to me and told me, "would you like to weigh 169 pounds?" I doubt I would have sat down and tried to bargain my way to a lower weight!!! I would of said, "Hell yes I do!"

That doesn't mean I'm going to stop now! I am going to finish the last few days of my fast strong. I'm going to prove to myself (and to everyone else out there who thought I'd never make it) that not only CAN I do this, but that I DID it.

My homework assignment for you all: At the end of the day today and here on out, tell yourself  "I made the decision to make it one more day without eating food (or I made it one more day making the best and most healthy choices). I am BADASS!" And BELIEVE it!!! It's empowering to know that YOU and you ALONE made the decision to stay strong. So on that note....

Stay strong and juice on, y'all!

Teela Juicing Herman